Mushy brain
Sinking sinkingsinking. I'm so sleepy. I'm talking to Jennifer right now, online, about God and her life and she is drinking. She is thinking so hard about life and darkness and the meaning of her own life. Again I have no answers. I offered her my support in a way, I'm always telling her to be honest with me, that she doesn't have to pretend. But it's hard to bear witness to a person's honesty.
I dont know what to say, there are no answers and only she knows how she feels and thinks. How can I add to that conversation uniquely. Without saying something like, "please don't kill yourself" or "I'm sorry"
Nothing I say is really right, and then I just erase and try again until all my sentiments are reduced to "yeah"
Wish I could add some hope to her life, but all I really can do is listen and try to relate in any way I can. Anyways It's light out now. I meant to sleep so much earlier than this…oh well
